@last chance?

friends advice me...why not to turn around and look whose people behind you.. I love him and i cant live without him..my defense of course.These things, I always did.I always masked his faults and weaknesses with tons of compliment.I tried to give a blind eye to his bad side and only chose to see what is good in him.Was that the very reason why he betrayed me?Was it because i was stupid?Was it because I was so light on him? Insane!That's not enough reason for him to betrayed you!Why not just accept the fact that it was actually him falling in "lust"it was piercing coming from my friend.Is this how first heartbreak goes like?Why hasn't anybody given me an actual warning?Had I known it would be like this,Id rather spent those years with him.But I hadn't known it.And worse,the moment I actually knew it was happening,I blinded myself..with his love..with mine " Maybe we can still fix things out.Maybe you can find a place for forgiveness there" He said as he hugged me."There had always been forgiveness in my heart but you had already taken them all,"I replied with tears running down my face.It's hard to let go,but it's even harder to hold on "Let me prove myself"he persuaded."I don't want you.I want your love".I selfishly demanded.And your not willing to give it completely.I'm ready to lose you.Besides,I've already been losing you before.I think it's time I learn to love myself first,"I lastly replied before leaving. Wiping my tears,I lazily threw my sleepy body in my bed.I know how difficult moving on is.Those memories,I know I could live with them.He's been a heartache,and it's time to go on,and with more respect for myself!